Introduction, sort of

Well, here it is. My own blog. I have no idea why I am writing one, as I am not very creative. At all. You have no idea how long it's taken to set up the page. I guess today just started out as one of those days - slept in, got into a spat with mom, had a deep-ish discussion with some friends.... And during all this, a growing feeling within me sort of crystallised itself.

I have this feeling. I am sure everyone has it at some point or the other. In fact, its so cliché, I feel my own inner sarcastic-condescending-self looking at me with a mockingly raised eyebrow. That's right. You've guessed it. I am feeling misunderstood, like nobody gets me. In my defence, this is not a case of full blown hysteria or depression or self-centred angst or any of those overly dramatic nonsensical emotions. It's just an increasingly stifling feeling of being forced into a box that's too small, too unidimensional. It's like even the people who know me are so focussed on one part of my personality, that that part is overwhelming everything else. And because they are so focussed on that one trait, they are making assumptions about the rest of me based on that. Woefully off-the-mark assumptions. Which kind of gets one thinking about what am I doing wrong here, that even people who know me - who can tell from my face that I need company, or that I need to be alone for a while or those hundred other things that makes you want to trust them with yourself - don't really know me.

Hence this sudden motivation to share my thoughts with everyone. I am posting my blog to try and figure out and articulate exactly why I am suddenly feeling alienated and frustrated with the people in my life, and their inability to understand.

However that's just the main cause that's got me writing. I am not too comfortable discussing my emotions  and feeling and stuff, so it shouldn't be too angsty. This blog will hopefully also give me a safe chance to let the formerly mentioned sarcastic-condescending part of my personality out in the open without stepping on too many toes. Because right now, that side is kinda getting me screwed. This is a much less risky place to state that I find most people around me are stupid, naive, immature, or any combination/permutation thereof. This freedom of being able to state my opinion about something or someone out in the open without having to worry about hurting feelings and violating social norms is liberating. So I think I will be recounting quite a few incidents here, with a pinch of salt and pepper, of course.

So hey, if you do end up reading my subsequent posts, they should be an amusing read. I have been told by many people that I am a sarcastic bitch. And, let's face it, it's always amusing to read accounts of other people's stupidity, from somewhat-egoistic-but-not-quiet-superior sarcastic people. But really, this is actually for my own benefit. So why do I post these instead of writing them in a personal diary? Because diaries are just lame.

Oh and I'm not really a misanthrope. I don't hate everyone. I just don't like most people I meet for any number of reasons. Doesn't mean I dislike them, more that they are inconsequential to me. But this accusation or a milder version thereof ("anti-social") has been following me for a while now. So hey. Needed something cool anyway.

Let the blogging begin.